writer – Camesha Gosha

You CAN’T be what you want!

September 17, 2013 by cam

“The biggest fallacy on earth is that you can be anything that you want to be. You can only be what you were meant to be.” ~Oprah Winfrey

When I first read that quote, I had a big question mark on my forehead. Then I read it again and it totally made sense. Everything I want isn’t always good for me. That goes for relationships, food AND ambitions.

When it comes to relationships, sometimes people show us who they are from the beginning and we have the choice and the chance to walk away. At other times, we learn who they are the hard way. It’s not always easy to know that some relationships just weren’t meant to be.

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Growing up I wanted to be a singer, a supermodel and a writer. Well, I don’t have the nerve to get up in front of people and sing. I’m too shy that way. I did, however, have the nerve to get up in front of people sometimes half naked and walk a runway or take photos. Even still, I’m no supermodel. That industry wanted more than I was willing to give and I gracefully bowed out. So I guess one out of three ain’t bad.

I am a writer and have been for what seems like forever. Writing is what I was meant to do though. Motivating people, is what I’m meant to do. Still, getting to that place of figuring out what I want and if it’s what’s meant for me took some trial and error. It took me auditioning for a choir and realizing my voice refused to meet me at the audition for me to finally accept that as much as I love singing, I wasn’t meant to do it on that level. Sometimes it takes having jobs that make us miserable to realize it’s time to do something else. Whatever the case, realizing we have the choice and the chance to be EXACTLY what we are meant to be is exciting and worth the journey. What do you think about Oprah’s quote?

Where’s Your Cape?

June 11, 2013 by cam

I’m a mother, a wife, a writer, a word nerd, a fashionista, a supporter, an encourager and a friend.

Even with all I’ve listed, I’m sure there are some things I’ve forgotten. I wear many titles. Some all at once, others when the time calls for it. It’s the writer that I’ve identified with longest. I’ve always had a love for putting pen to paper.

Whether writing stories, songs or poems, writing has always been my release. Somewhere along the way, I began to make a living off of my words. I feel lucky for that. It was a dream I didn’t know I had. I have been able to achieve many of my dreams. The fulfillment that brings is priceless. I guess that’s why I’m so passionate about other people dreaming big and making those dreams reality.

I heard something recently that made me stop and think. “Superman was born a super hero. Clark Kent was just his disguise.” I think the same is true for us all.

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What super powers are you disguising under your Clark Kent persona?

Let me let you in on a Secret…

April 30, 2013 by cam

Are great writers made or born? I think it’s a combination of both. We’re all born with a gift. Whether it’s singing or dancing it’s in us from birth. What we do do nurture and grow those gifts is totally up to us. I think writing is the same way. It took me some time to come out and call myself a writer. Don’t ask me why. It occurred to me that I had been writing for a living for over a decade, so why was I afraid to say it out loud? Well, I finally did. It felt good to own it. I think for a while I just thought that being a writer needed to be more glamorous. Silly me. I write for television. That’s pretty glam. Writing for me has always been my outlet. I remember as a little girl, I would write songs. Those songs later turned into poems. I wrote books. I wrote just for the sake of writing. It was as if I had so much to say and the only way to get it out was to put pen to paper. I did that over and over again. I still do it. I’m a self proclaimed word nerd. Have something to say, and say it as clearly as you can. That is the only secret. – Matthew Arnold

My love of writing has taken me back to school post college more than a few times. I clearly have a crush on the written word. It’s been going on for decades. I think it’s getting serious. I think I’m one of the lucky ones because I found my passion early on. Even though it took me some time to acknowledge it. My other passion is helping people follow theirs. I have this strong desire to see people do what it is they want to do. I want so badly to see other people live the life of their dreams. Am I crazy? Maybe.

So tell me, what’s your crazy passion?

Lesson Learned…Finally

April 9, 2013 by cam

*This was originally published by me on Studio 30 Plus*

What makes a writer? I have seen this question asked in some form or another a lot lately. I’ve even asked the question of myself. It wasn’t until recently that I began to see myself as a writer. I’m not sure why it took me so long to come to this conclusion. I have been writing for my paycheck for years. I think I started writing for a living back in ’99. Why then did it take 2012 for me to just say it?

I don’t know if I thought that I hadn’t done enough to justify the title or if I thought people would have a negative reaction. I’m really not sure what it was that made me uncomfortable with calling a spade, a spade – a writer, a writer. I think I always saw myself in the same shoes as the singer who waits tables. She’s singing at weddings and other events but she doesn’t have a deal yet. That doesn’t make her any less a singer, right?

For me, I’ve always been a writer plus something else. My titles have always been writer/editorial asst or writer/producer, etc. I’d just go with the latter and ignore the writer portion. It’s so odd because the writing part is the part I love. It’s the writing that I’ve wanted to do as long as I can remember. I should have always been more than happy to share it.

Well it doesn’t matter how long it took me to get here, I’m here. I’m proudly sharing my title, my passion, my love – I’m a writer and it’s awesome! It’s lessons like this that I’m glad I’m learning so that my kids don’t have to. No need to make yourself less than what you are for the acceptance of others. It took me too long to figure that out.

Am I the only one who’s ever felt like this? Have you ever been in denial about your talents/gifts? Share in the comments.